Yesterday was a long day. Brian and I got a new sectional and we sold our couch and loveseat. The person I sold them to was a complete surprise but it resulted in me having the opportunity to see my 14 year old nephew that I hadnt seen in ten years. My last memory of seeing him is while I was in the hospital after the wreck. My fosterparents pushed me in a wheelchair to Iggys room. He was propped up inthe bed with a stuffed animal in one arm and the other arm completely bandaged. My memory is foggy because I was on a lot of pain medications. He was such a sweet 3 year old. He was hard to understand so we always asked Kenia what he was saying. Only she understood him. Iggy stood before me last night... taller than me and spoke english clearly and maturely.
He looked exactly like my sister. I was amazed that he was standing in front of me. I have always felt bad that Ive never had the opportunity to be around him as he has grown up. It makes me terribly sad. What was even more sad was listening to Iggys father Nacho, share with me his account of the car accident. He drove by the scene of the accident to get to the hospital and saw a body in a bag being loaded into the back of a vehicle. He had no clue it was either my mom or his daughter. My eyes were filled with tears because no one has ever shared what they remember with me. I realized that Kenia really is gone. And that life has gone on without her which was even more saddening. Ive felt sad lately because Raegan is going to turn 5 years old soon. Its the age Kenia was when she died. I dont think of Rae dying but it makes me emotional remembering Kenia at this age.
I didnt know how I would feel seeing my nephew. It was bittersweet.I am glad he has healed up and is doing well in school. He seems to be mature and responsible which is good. I hope to see him again soon. <3
