Today has been a good day. Woke up early to a phone call from our contractor. We went outside and he explained how we're supposed to stuff insulation around our windows and doors. The electrician is supposed to come on Monday and we'll have brick soon after that.
We have shingles on our roof. Its soo exciting. I'm still painting this damn trim... white is a beautiful color but I have to do several coats because the smallest blemish shows. Brian should be home in the next 30 minutes or so.. and he's going to help me finish.
Luke has been a good baby today.. he only cried when I went to the bathroom to do my business.. and Raegan has been very pleasant. She looks forward to every day when Brian gets off work. He takes her outside and she runs around our "work in progress" (our new home)
Today has went by pretty fast.. The house is quiet and I'm listening to some Jason Aldean. Ahh there are some songs that make me feel nostalgic. I can't explain the feeling it gives me.. its calming, kind of soothes my soul. We all have those songs.. and we all know that feeling. It feels almost as if he's singing the song to me. ah! lol
I'm trying to think of what I should say. There is plenty I could talk about.. but with this blog being so public.. I shall restrain myself.
Anyways.. first thought in my head. I can't wait to move into our new house. (my house my house my house....yes someday I'll eventually stop talking about it)... I'm ready to deep clean everything and start over in our new house. Brian and I never had a wedding shower.. so we didn't have tons of nice new stuff when we came home from our wedding. We've got some stuff, new comforters and wall decor.. its all still packaged.. we're waiting until the day we move in to actually open them. I look forward to new towels, and sheets, and pillows.. a beautiful dining room table.. and a beautiful bedroom set. Slowly but surely.. I'm so excited to actually feel like I'm in my home, that's comfortable and not cluttered. This house is so small.. and while I'm thankful for a roof over my head, I can't help but feel bitter and annoyed towards this house. I've known since I moved in, that this is not my forever home.. so I've been ready to get out of it from the beginning.. and THE TIME HAS COME! :) YAY.. almost. Sigh.
Today I miss my dear friend a bunch. She lives in Germany for the time being... 3 years is a long time.. I'm ready for her to be back though. I enjoy texting her every day.. and her encouragement and her opinion and her companionship. (Pssst. Heather I'm talking about you!)
I must say.. I also can't help but think about how I'm in a really good spot. I enjoy my life. I haven't been this happy in ....ever. I know life is a roller coaster.. but I'm on a good high. I don't think I've ever been so content with life. After I had Raegan, I had so many nervous breakdowns.. I was such an emotional wreck. Life was really stressful. But.. Things are so much better after Luke. I really am happy and I enjoy every day so much. I enjoy waking up, and I enjoy going to bed. I know even though things were stressful, I was happy with Raegan, but not this happy. not this content. Things really seem to be going my way. I hate to jinx myself. Being as happy as I am makes me really notice how different Brian and I are. Not necessarily in a bad way. I am an optimist. Brian on the other hand is a pessimist. Its frustrating.. and I point it out every time he says something negative to counteract my happiness or what I'm excited for. Its annoying. Of course with being a glass half full person.. I understand things go wrong.. but things also get better.. but Brian only things of the things that can go wrong. I don't know if theres any way for me to RE-wire the way he thinks. I think he'd be a happier person if he wasn't so concerned with the things that will or won't happen, or will or won't go wrong. Sigh.. input?
Blah blah blah..
Luke is starting to wimper.. I'm going to go roll around in the floor with him.
Natalie
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