A Day Gone By

I have no complaints about today.  I'm able to manage two children by myself.. surprisingly well.  Brian went to work around 9 this morning.  I decided I was going to clean around our *new* house... Between listening to Luke whine, and chasing Raegan around so I could make sure she wasn't stepping on nails, or doing anything she shouldn't be... I only managed to stay out there for 45 minutes.  Its frustrating... but I've got the whole summer to get used to it.

So I finally finished the spring semester! My last at Murray!.. It was probably the easiest.. I wish I had taken those classes earlier.  I'll start the next semester at SE in just a couple of weeks.  It seems the breaks between semesters go by so fast.  Classes will start soon and I'll be stressed out, losing sleep, and pulling my hair out. 

I sold my books back to the bookstore yesterday.  I got enough back to be able to afford to get two of these stray cats spayed.  I feel sad, one of the cats is pregnant but the woman I spoke to over the phone reassured me that its better to spay her now, than wait until she has the kittens because they probably won't find homes.  She said she puts kittens to sleep every day.  It makes me sad just thinking about taking a momma cat in and her not having her kittens when she comes out.  I imagine that motherhood is the same for cats just as it is for humans.  The strong desire to love and protect your babies.  It makes me sad, I don't want to play God. I don't want to decide that her kittens aren't worth anything.  Life itself is beautiful..and if I could I would take all of the kittens.. I just wish that I had gotten her spayed sooner (to avoid her pregnancy) or that she wasn't pregnant.. because I don't want to do this.  I just can't afford to have a million cats running around, and I can't afford to spay 5-7 more kittens on top of the cats I've already got to spay.  Brian's step dad says he'll take care of the cats if I don't spay them.  When he says "take care of them" he means he'll shoot them, and make sure they're dead.  That breaks my heart too.  I've found all but one kitten a home (different momma cat)... I figured the 3 Siamese cats would go first.. everything I've read says that black cats are the most unlikely to find a home.  :( These kittens are beautiful.. again I'd keep all of them but I can't feed all of them.

Sigh.. in other news..No one has came out today to work on the house.  The contractor came over and had Brian sign some checks.. He said that some of the framers were sick but they'd be out here asap to finish the shingles and windows/doors.  He told Brian that he expects it to be done Friday.. which is a day and a half away.  We'll be painting trim soon and dragging the shingles to the roof.  I've swept inside the house a couple of times.. but the wind blows the dust back into the house.  There are plenty of nails that need to be picked up.  I really don't enjoy picking up other people's trash.  I would never go onto someone else property and throw trash and unwanted goods all across it.  We were told to put trash cans out.  But most of the men don't use them.  They throw their disgusting cigarettes down.. along with their empty cups and water bottles.  I'll be happy when this process is done.

Raegan and Luke want my attention.

I've got to go.

Natalie