Today is slow, but not slow enough. Brian has to go to work in a couple of hours. We've already been outside today to walk around our unfinished frame. The contractor said yesterday that the framers would work all weekend to finish it by Monday.. but its 11:30 and theres no one out here. I don't think anyone is going to come out today because its only going to get hotter from here.
I read some of my blogs on Myspace. Especially the very few I wrote after I had Raegan. I read them, and I could see how helpless and hopeless I felt. I'm glad I'm not in that position anymore. I am happy. Very happy.
No one ever openly discusses all of the hard things they experience after having a baby. People think of babies as being fun and cute.. but its hard, taking care of a baby and putting a baby before yourself. Having children effects everything about your life, and how you feel, your priorities and everything else. Don't get me wrong. I absolutely love my babies. But its having gone through it once, and now experiencing everything for a second time...I'm able to see how much better things are this time around. Everything is SO much better. I feel better. and I'm happier. I don't feel as hopeless or helpless. and I actually feel more like I'm serving a purpose than just existing or "babysitting".
Well.. anyways I just wanted to update that today is going good. and I'm hungry.
Rawr!
Natalie.
No one ever told me about what happens *after* the baby is born, that's for sure! I knew I'd be tired but I had no freakin' idea that my hormones would take nose dive and make me feel so bad! It's such a special time too, I hate that we have to ride such a roller coaster during those first few weeks (or months). I think if I could avoid that...I'd have like five more! :)
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