In the beginning

Its been so long since I've written anything. I don't even know where to start.  I used to write all of the time. I wrote through my whole pregnancy with my daughter Raegan, and then once she started moving.. I was far too busy. I couldn't keep up. I can't believe its been 3 years since she was born.

Today I decided I should try picking up writing again. I always enjoyed it. It really helps me sort through the things in my mind.  I find it therapeutic and relaxing.  My hope is that others can relate to what I say or think and also that I can be encouraging or inspiring.

So lets start with today.

Everything is going well. We're currently building a home...and I can't help but feel anxious about the contractors and others coming and working on it.  I can see everything they're doing from my window.. We're tearing down this house after our new home is built.  The only thing that bites is that no one showed up yesterday or today. Sooo... I guess this anxious feeling isn't going away.

Today is a beautiful day. Sunshine and blue skies.  The wind keeps sweeping the sweet aroma of flowers into the house. (The front door is open.)  Raegan is playing. She insists on wearing a dress every day. Thats no problem. The thing is today she wants to wear a dress that is meant to be worn in the winter.  So She's wearing it in the house with the air on.  I figured that wouldn't hurt right?

If you are still reading this.. I'll mention how ready I am to be done with school. I've only got a couple more weeks left in this semester.  I feel good knowing I'm half way through school. A Junior. Yippee.  But it doesn't keep me from dreading the upcoming semesters.  I convinced my husband to continue his education. He finished his first two years of school, and then stopped attending when he got the job he's got now.  He's had his job in a smoke filled casino for 11 years.. and I really don't like it.  His dad died from lung cancer, and I think that makes him want to finish his education even more.. So when he has his degree he can obtain a job that he really enjoys and has a better schedule.

I'm majoring in Sociology.  I find it to be easy. I understand so much about the things we discuss in my classes.  I guess that has to do with my childhood.  I grew up in a single parent home.  Money was tight.  The physical, psychological and emotional abuse did plenty of damage.  I was placed in foster care when I was 13.  I was in a car accident while on a visit with my mom when I was 14.  My mom and niece died.  So I was in care until I turned 18.  I was released to discover the world on my own with very little support.  I met my husband my first semester of college.  Married him a year to the day we met, and we've been together for 6 years now.  We had our daughter Raegan in January of 2009. and our son was due in January of 2012, but he came just a few days early and landed on December 28, 2011.

I enjoy being a mother, watching my children grow is such a blessing.  I have the opportunity to be at home with them.  Some days are stressful but I really enjoy every day I have with them.

Sorry to cut this short. Luke is starting to cry. He's a boobie monster. Gotta feed'm.

I'll write more as soon as the opportunity presents itself.  Probably when Luke is sleeping. ;)

Natalie