Filling in Gaps

Okay so here I am.  Christmas has come and gone. I've wanted to blog for a while but life happens and ....sometimes I just don't feel like I have much to say.  So let me fill in everything that has happened since my last post.

not really anything.

haha.  Christmas came, we have 2 foreign exchange students who are living with us now.  Laura leaves in February and Anna will be here until the middle of June.  Christmas was nice.  Raegan and Luke had a lot of fun.  My final semester has began.  Its kind of nerve-racking but I believe I will do alright.

The first day of class kind of sucked.  I woke up with a migraine but I didn't want to miss class because I really enjoy school.  So I went to class...I had brain fog so bad I couldn't even remember people I've had several classes with.  Later that day I finally convinced Brian to take me to the emergency room because I was in so much pain.

I was actually surprised when I saw the doctor because he had actually helped deliver Luke, but at that time he was just an intern.  I told him that my migraine felt like the one I had in June 2012 where I had a seizure.  He tried to convince me that I was just having a tension headache.  I got a shot in the butt, and if you know me.. I hate needles and I've refused shots in the butt many times but I felt horrible.  SO I came home.. and the shot did nothing for me.  I felt sick many times during the night.. I woke up in the middle of the night and could not sleep so I got on facebook and started chatting with Heather at 4 in the morning.

At one point I thought I had fallen asleep while talking to her but it turns out I had lost consciousness because I had a seizure.  Of course I didn't realize I had had a seizure.  I woke up and felt this fuzzy feeling.. which I recognized but it didn't hit me that I had had a seizure.. so I went to class and felt anxious. I came home.. and later that night I cried myself to sleep.  The anxiety was ridiculous.  I never cry.. I never cry myself to sleep and I never have anxiety about my scars like I did the other night.

I hate seizures.. it makes me feel so unlike myself. Its the most disgusting creepy feeling I have ever felt.  Sooo I'm currently trying to get all of this insurance crap figured out because I need to go to the neurologist. and I feel like I need to start all over.  I find it hard to believe that I am having migraines.. although..that is what I was diagnosed with nearly 11 years ago.  I've not felt content with that answer.. especially when nothing as ever relieved what I feel.

My anxiety is finally gone and I feel so much better.  I've already started having my regular headaches though..and I just treat them with tylenol.  Hopefully I can survive this semester and there won't be much that interferes with me attending school.  I am super excited to graduate.  Every time I think about it.. tears swell up in my eyes.  No one can possibly understand how excited I am.

In other news... Raegan has started back at school and I am attending school every day in Ada.  Its already kind of exhausting but it'll be okay once I get this schedule down.  Luke is growing so much.  He's talking so much and is so entertaining.  I can't believe how fast the two of them have grown.  We took Raegan to an arcade place where she got to play games and jump in a bounce house.  She was so worn out...

Raegan turned 5 on January 6th.  She really didn't want to turn 5.. so I just let her think she turned 6.  It was pretty funny.  Brian turned 34 the other day.  He had a good birthday.. (I had my migraine) but other than that everything is pretty normal.

Everything is going well.....and I am excited for the end of the semester!!!!! :)

I guess I'll go now.. but I plan to update rather soon because I have a lot of things to write about.. except I need to focus when I write it out... I've got two kids who are running around screaming and refusing to go to bed right now.  Thats my main focus. I want to wind down and go to sleeeeeep!

Love Always,
Natalie